Starting Over Talk - Peer Coaching Support Site

i would open up to people but most of the time i dont trust people. my heart isnt open to anyone and i'm angry hating person a lot of the time...thats what i'm known as to a lot of people.

some of the reason i wanna change is so i dont loose my best friend. he cant help me anymore because he has his own things now..i'm beyond help so i believe.

and ever since my brother died last year i have just lost all hope. he was the only one that loved me in my family. and he protected me from everything so i guess you can say that i dont really know how to defend for myself most days. He always protected me from "evil" in this cold heartless world..and when i lost him or found out he had died. i lost my confidence, self-esteem but most of all i lost my way.

its like i'm now in a dark room not knowing where the hec i'm going because i have no one to guide me anymore. i guess my best friend had the part of my life..i'm still learning from him but its not as simple as it use to be...