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Just wanted to give everyone an update, I have no idea where either of my parents are and I have no contact with them at all. The last time I saw them was almost three months ago, the 9th of this month will be three months since I lost one of my uncles suddenly and that's the last time I saw them. I was hurt so bad becasue my dad had lost one of his brothers, and I was there for him when he needed me yet he woulden't even speak to me at all. I tried to talk with him, I was there for him, I tried to get close to him but he would walk off. My mom woulden't speak to me either, they both kept their distance from me as usual. I do understand my dad was really hurt from loosing one of his brothers, but still he should have let me helped him out. I can't help it that I'm just a caring person and can't stand to see either of my parents hurt, sad, down, depressed, sad, or anything. I love both of them so much and I have began the healing process of everything they did to hurt me, although I forgave them years ago it takes years to heal. I have so many bad and painful memories of thing they said and did to me, I just ask God to give me the strength I need to carry on and to continue to heal from all that bad and hurtful stuff. I didn't get to see or talk to either of them on Thanksgiving day but I still prayed for them. I asked God to just be with them wherever they are because only He knows where they are, to watch over them, protect them, keep them safe, give them the knowledge and understanding. For Him to just put His arms around them and comfort them, to bless them in every aspet of their life, as well as those around them. I also asked Him to do the same for their step-children, granted they love them and not my sister and I but hey that's ok maybe they have realized something I don't know but God does. I just keep praying that one day they will change and realieze what they did before it's to late, that they will accep their salvation number one and then also before they're on their death bed just to hear them say "I'm sorry for everything, I should have been there for you, I should have loved you, so I'm telling you all of that now". Only God can make that happen though, but at the same time they have to stop trying to run from God and accept Him as well as their mistake and do their part in the whole thing. I don't know if I'll get to see or talk to either of them on Christmas and I highly doubt that I will, but they will be in my heart and on my mind. I hope all is well with everyone on here and yur familes as well, I pray that God will continue to bless all of you richly.
Take care and God bless all of you always,
Sue
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