Starting Over Talk - Peer Coaching Support Site

The show starts off with Lisa throwing a temper tantrum and TJ is frustrated. Lisa is really acting like a brat. Lisa breaks down and starts crying. Lisa really felt like she was five years old and she is angry with her parents. Allison is talking to her and tells her she doesn’t know any better and it’s not her fault. Lisa opens up about how her Mom never showed her anything and she never had any birthday parties. Lisa didn’t get a gift for her 40th Birthday. Allison says in confessional that she would be angrier about how the parents took care of her her whole life and didn’t let her grow up. Lisa is lying on her bed crying.

Christina talks to Allison and Jessica and tells them about how she must be a good Mom and she misses her son. Jessica starts thinking of her Mom and Allison tells her that her Mom will always be her Mom. Allison in confessional says she’s really touched and depressed because she will never be a Mom. TJ tells Jessica she is lucky because she is loving and she got that from her Mom and would be a natural Mom.

Jill is eating a salad and saying she hasn’t really eaten today. She says if she doesn’t stick with her diet Iyanla will be on her butt. She will really miss cooking.

TJ told Lisa she is taking her out with the rest of them tonight. We see all of the SOG’s getting ready. Iyanla calls and asks TJ if they got a sitter and she says no and Iyanla tells her she will arrange a sitter for baby Lisa. TJ breaks the news to Lisa and Lisa looks shocked and is sad because she was looking forward to a night out with the girls. The sitter shows up and Lisa feels humiliated and small and stupid and she’s exhausted from the lights and lows of the day. The sitter brought books and she’s going to read Lisa a story.

We see the SOG’s out at the Aurora club drinking and dancing. Rhonda says in confessional that they do a lot of down and dirty work and she wants the ladies to feel fun and have a great night.

We see Lisa on the couch lying down and the sitter is reading to her and she is holding an ice cream home.

Allison would rather be at home napping but feels that she needs to be with the girls and bonding so she’s going to hang tough.

TJ calls home and talks to the sitter and finds out how Lisa is. Lisa is in bed and has had a long day and looking forward to getting sleep after a day of highs and lows.

It is now the next morning and we see TJ blowing Lisa’s hair. Lisa is getting annoyed and feels TJ is having a big power trip.

There is a belly dancer outside and she is doing a fantastic little dance. Allison says she woke up this morning committed to ehr second round of the SO house. It’s a new set of girls and a new commitment and she’s wondering if the dancer exercise has anything to do with her and feeling feminine and better about her body. The belly dancer is showing them how to do the dance. Allison just had a hysterectomy and was cut open hipbone to hip bone and still has stitches. Allison wants to feel free but is in pain. Jill is feeling very self-conscious. Lisa is feeling irritated and annoyed by how TJ is treating her. Everyone looked like they enjoyed dancing and had fun.

Jill is going over her food list and is complaining about the margarine and the small amount she is allowed to eat.

Group is with Rhonda and Iyanla. Iyanla welcomes Allison back and they go over her story. Living beyond cancer was her first goal. Allison didn’t have emotion and Allison learned how to prevent getting cancer again. She explains to the ladies she has removed her right breast and had a hysterectomy. She developed an infection in her right breast and that is why she was late getting to the house. Iyanla is wondering if Allison’s old habits are starting to resurface because two days ago Allison told Iyanla she was fine. They show Allison’s graduation day and it was very cool. Allison is back because she is not happy and was that way before the cancer. Jill is crying and emotional and says she understands the denial Allison has gone through. They talk about her self-portrait. There is a drawing of her with her breasts cut out and a scar but this graduate is walking on her path trying to get into that life box. If the box she’s wearing a red dress and lounging and there’s a guy that looks like Dr. Stan and Allison just realized that and they all laugh. Allison feels she is fat, ugly, disfigured, now whole and not a real woman and feels sad, empty and embarrassed. It’s been 7-8 years since she was in a loving relationship and 10 years since she had a job she loved. Allison’s goal is to live large. Allison will have to step it up to life large. Allison will have to live beyond her cancer.

Dr. Stan meets with Jill and they talk about her diet. In high school Jill lost weight and had boys that liked her in high school but she had no boyfriends. Dr. Stan has a picture of a new woman with a weight issue and they’ll get to the deeper issue and go forward.

Allison receives a bracelet from a fan named Carrie that organized a group of women who walked and ran in Allison’s name for Cancer research. She reads the letter from Carrie and is really touched.

Lisa meets with Rhonda and they discuss how it is going. She had fun but then realized how ridiculous it was when set in to play with three-year-olds. It feels good to have people take care of you and get attention. When TJ is trying to be her Mom she has more compassion for her own Mom. When TJ ripped her fake fingernails off it was Lisa’s breakthrough moment. Lisa never really had a childhood. Lisa is going to go out today in her pink baby dress and have an interview for the sake of interviewing. Lisa is chocked.

Allison is showing her squatters drawings from last season to the SOG’s.

Lisa is having a hard time trying to navigate the vehicle to her interview and even complains that she didn’t put it in reverse so she doesn’t know why the vehicle is not in drive. Lisa meets with Stacy and tells Stacy different things during the interview, which is to find out how Lisa would interview. Lisa says she doesn’t like a desk job, doesn’t like 9-5 hours and prefers off-hours and being on the move. Her most recent job was 8 years ago for only 2 years. Lisa doesn’t know what she wants in a job. When asked what past employers would say she claims they would probably say Lisa talks inappropriately. Stacy sees several red flags and one of them is the gap in employment. When asked about the dress, Lisa says that emotionally she has been behaving like a baby but she’s trying to take the step to be an adult.

Iyanla talks with Allison and Allison tells Iyanla that she was uncomfortable doing the belly dancing. When talking about body image Allison says that the breasts are more uncomfortable because she still tries to mask the breasts. Allison had the skin from her stomach implanted for her breasts and laughs that it is weird because it has hair on it so now she has hairy breasts. Reality is now about living, not just surviving. They need to retrain Allison’s mind. Iyanla asks if Allison is willing to date with her scars and imbalances and Allison says she doesn’t know if she is ready but she is ready to try. She is going to the doctor today and is to take a housemate along for support.

Lisa tells the SOG’s about her interview and she feels she has come over her fear.

Allison chose TJ to drive her to the doctor. Allison sits in the back because a seatbelt hurts. TJ is chatting the whole way and Allison is getting an earful today. They have been in the car for two hours.

Jill goes to see Marcus! They discuss her goals, what they want to accomplish, a medical history and weight. Jill likes water workouts, the treadmill and weights. Jill gets measurements and then gets on the treadmill. She’s afraid to fail.

It’s been less than two months since Allison’s surgery but she’s still in alot of pain. Allison goes back to the patient’s room to have her tests done. TJ is waiting and we hear her say in voice over confessional that they other housemates don’t know her story but hopes they understand why she acts the way she does and will have more patience with her.

On Wednesday’s starting Over. . .

**Lisa may have finally gone too far.
**TJ is pushed over the edge
**Jessica snaps.