Starting Over Talk

Thanks, I'm just me and like to keep it real no playing games for me. I'm not like that, I've been hurt to many times and know how bad it hurts so I woulden't do anyone like that for anything in the world.

Take care and God Bless always,
Sue

Sue,
Every time I read one of your posts I just marvel at what a beautiful person you are. You have risen above and continue to forgive. That is why God continues to bless you. You must make God smile and say to himself, "job well done!"

Thanks, but I'm just who I am and choose to forgive people. I'm having a very hard time right now cause it has now been two months and a day since I watched my uncle pass away right in front of my eyes and I also just found out someone I went to high school with was killed in Iraq, he was only 19 but such a wonderful person. I guess it was just his time to go and so God called him home as well as my uncle on that day. I'm not going to give up hope though, because I know without a doubt God is in control and is doing His will, and that He knows exactly what He's doing. So yes it's hard and there's pain, but also happiness, joy, just everything I could ask for in the Lord. I'm going to a benefit for my uncle to pay for the funeral expenses because he had no insurance at all and it was a sudden passing. I also wrote my biological mother a hand writen prayer letter about salvation, and how God has worked in my life and all that. Every singel line top to bottmn and side to side, I didn't leave anything out and I sure didn't hold back anything, but I did put it in a mature and adult way, just a prayer is all so need for her to get mad. I've lost all contact with her because she had her phone disconnected and everything so all I can do is hope and pray to God she still lives at the same address so she'll get the letter. First of all I'm never giving upon God, secondly I'll never stop praying or reading Gods word, and third of all I'll never give up on or stop praying for both of my biological parents and their salvation. The one thing I want most in this whole world is to have them in Heaven with God and right beside me, I think about that all the time and just look up to the sky, talk to God about it for a while, and cry. At least I let it all out though and just leave it with him. *woo hoo* I have God how about you? * woot woot* Jesus lives in me, what about you, does Jesus live in you? Do you feel what I feel? Man life's just so great when we have the Lord leading the way, watching over us, protecting us, and just keeping us safe from all harm. Most of all He loves us so much.
Just look at how much Jesus loves us, not only did He die on that old rugged cross for us, take the worst beating ever, being spit on, cursed at, spears peicering His sides, beat with wipes, a crown of thorns places on His head, beaten all the way up Calvary Hill, hands and feet nailed to that old cross, but He also carried the very cross on His back the whole time and the whole way. Now that's just pure love and the best love of all, and no one can argue that with me or anyone else. Well I'll leave everyone with this, Jesus is the man and the only TRUE MAN. WOO PRAISE YOU LORD AND HAVE YOUR WAY IN ALL OUR LIVES!

[color=#0000FF]Just wanted to give everyone an update, I have no idea where either of my parents are and I have no contact with them at all. The last time I saw them was almost three months ago, the 9th of this month will be three months since I lost one of my uncles suddenly and that's the last time I saw them. I was hurt so bad becasue my dad had lost one of his brothers, and I was there for him when he needed me yet he woulden't even speak to me at all. I tried to talk with him, I was there for him, I tried to get close to him but he would walk off. My mom woulden't speak to me either, they both kept their distance from me as usual. I do understand my dad was really hurt from loosing one of his brothers, but still he should have let me helped him out. I can't help it that I'm just a caring person and can't stand to see either of my parents hurt, sad, down, depressed, sad, or anything. I love both of them so much and I have began the healing process of everything they did to hurt me, although I forgave them years ago it takes years to heal. I have so many bad and painful memories of thing they said and did to me, I just ask God to give me the strength I need to carry on and to continue to heal from all that bad and hurtful stuff. I didn't get to see or talk to either of them on Thanksgiving day but I still prayed for them. I asked God to just be with them wherever they are because only He knows where they are, to watch over them, protect them, keep them safe, give them the knowledge and understanding. For Him to just put His arms around them and comfort them, to bless them in every aspet of their life, as well as those around them. I also asked Him to do the same for their step-children, granted they love them and not my sister and I but hey that's ok maybe they have realized something I don't know but God does. I just keep praying that one day they will change and realieze what they did before it's to late, that they will accep their salvation number one and then also before they're on their death bed just to hear them say "I'm sorry for everything, I should have been there for you, I should have loved you, so I'm telling you all of that now". Only God can make that happen though, but at the same time they have to stop trying to run from God and accept Him as well as their mistake and do their part in the whole thing. I don't know if I'll get to see or talk to either of them on Christmas and I highly doubt that I will, but they will be in my heart and on my mind. I hope all is well with everyone on here and yur familes as well, I pray that God will continue to bless all of you richly.

Take care and God bless all of you always,
Sue[/color]